sometimes i will ask myself why am i being like this

why my relationship is so not what i want and expected

what i did for god being so cruel to me

if this is retribution isn't four years time of being a fool enough

now

a girl who wont accept me forever

how long this time

i really don't know

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you have escape from my heart because there's a hole in it

i think you had make the decision

i don't wanna lie to myself anymore

so i wanna let you go just as you wish

i really really had try but i really really can't leave

sorry when i'm being over

every time i told myself i have no rights to be like this

but every time i mind and i just cant let go

it's out of control

but i know if i stay i'm the one hurt

because there is no me in you, never ever, i do understand

but people was so stupid that even the reality is infront of them or even being realize they have being hurt deeply

they still stay for their loves one

i'm stupid

i started to feel pity of myself because no matter how the story is

i'm always alone

the words are in my head all the time

i think i'm really really mind

I know and understand somehow we will recall someone special to us in the night

and indeed i do mind it when i saw it

i want to get distance

but maybe it had really become my habit

it's either falling into deeply or a turn my back on

you will decide it...